the insanity of a young artist...

As sad as it is, I'm mostly looking forward to the books coming out.  Nerdy, I know, but hey, that's who I am.  I spend most of my time reading and also most of my money buying books so I can read them.  The books I am most excited about Outcast and Warrior's Return of the Warriors series by Erin Hunter.  Also, I'm extremely excited about the fourth book of the Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn.  Even though I haven't finished the second and third ones, I still can't wait.  I know that Midnight Sun is coming out soon, too, but I'm not sure when.  I'm even more excited about that one because it's from Edward's POV!!  *squee*

I'm also excited about HP6 coming out, although it's not until next November, and also for Tim Burton's take on Alice in Wonderland.  I just think that one will be fun to see! =]

So yeah...that's basically what I'm mostly looking forward to in 2008.


 

Takes place after Edward leaves Bella in New Moon.

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Edward stared out the window.  The scenery went rushing by as they rose off the ground.  This was it.  There was no turning and running back now.  Bella was gone; safely back in Forks the way it should be; and he was sitting on a plane alone, putting as much distance between him and Forks as he possibly could.  The exchange was still fresh in his mind.

“You can have my soul.  I don’t want it without you—it’s yours already!”
“Bella, I don’t want you to come with me.”
“You…don’t…want me?”
“No.”

How he had managed to keep himself from letting his pain and regret from showing through to his face, he hadn’t quite figured out.  He knew that there was nothing more he wanted than to be with Bella, forever; but that would mean putting her life in danger.  Condemning her to a damned life.  He couldn’t do that to her; she was the love of his life.

He reached into his bag a pulled out the pictures he had taken from Bella’s scrapbook.  Flipping through the photographs, he felt his throat well up, feeling the sensation of forcing back tears.  He knew the mere idea of him crying was plain ridiculous, but it all hurt just the same.  He came across the picture of him and Bella.  The only tangible memory he had of his beloved’s face.

Her eyes—beautiful, chocolate brown—were clouded with soft pain, instead of her charming, spirit.  Standing next to her, was a man he hardly recognized.  Stony-faced, vacant expression, emotionless eyes.  This is what he had become; no more than a statue, put up for display.  Having to, everyday, pretend that he had not been affected by leaving.  Having to pretend that never seeing Bella didn’t hurt him at all.

Edward shoved the other pictures back in his bag, keeping the one of Bella lay softly in his hands.  He took his CD player out and plugged in the headphones.  He hadn’t bothered to check what CD was in; he just needed something, anything, to get his mind away from everything he had lost.  He closed his eye.  The soft music humming in his ears.

The song was too familiar to him.  It was sweet.  The most beautiful song he had ever heard.  Bella’s Lullaby…

The beautiful song made him relax.  For a moment, he truly believed he was lying on the soft comforter quilt on her bed.  Bella sitting beside him, running her delicate hands through his bronze hair.  She had never gotten the paper cut during her birthday party, Jasper had never been tempted to attack her, he had never decided to leave her alone.

Edward squeezed his eyes shut, trapping the non-existent tears beneath his eyelids.  He pressed the photograph to his chest.  He bit his lip.  The memories would never fade, no matter how hard he tried, they would never go away.  Bella would get over him—one way or another—that’s all that mattered.  She would live her life as originally planned: alive.

But what about him?  He had nearly ninety years alone, watching everyone else around him being with their true love.  The only time he truly felt complete was when he was with Bella.  He had become accustomed to her exquisite floral scent, and loved having her warm body press up against his freezing, marbled skin.  Her beautiful, flawless lips brush against his.

He would never have any of that again.  Bella would be safe, happy, and alive—that was the positive.  But he would remain away from her; miserable, immortal, and alone—forever. 


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The image of Bella lying in the hospital bed flashed clearly through Edward’s mind.  He remembered how frantic he had been, wondering if she had been seriously injured.  Why do I care so much?  He wondered to himself.  He of all people should know that nothing good can happen when you get too emotionally attached to someone—especially when that someone is your prey.  When the accident had first happened, so many years ago, Edward had vowed not to get too close to a mortal.  He would not condemn another to the same fate he had to face.

But there was something about the girl from Phoenix that Edward just couldn’t stay away from.  She was different from the other mortal girls that lived in Forks.  He could read each and every one of them like a book and they were all the same story:  Shoes, clothes, shopping, and boys—especially boys.  But Bella, well, Bella wasn’t that easy.  He could look into her eyes, searching for anything to read, but somehow, he couldn’t get through.  Why am I so intrigued by that? he wondered.  Because she’s so mysterious…he decided.  And…she treats you like everyone else?  Was that why?  She did seem to treat him normally; something no one else had even attempted to do.

No, he told himself.  It was her scent.  Her mouthwatering, somewhat floral scent was what attracted her to him.  It wasn’t she who he wanted, it was her blood.  But somehow, he didn’t think that was the only reason.

Edward slowed the silver Volvo and stopped at the side of the quite road.  “What is happening to me?” he thought aloud.  He had never had these feelings for anyone before.  The closest people he had was his family; and they each had someone to love.  Emmet had Rosalie, Jasper had Alice—but who did he have?  His hands began to clench with jealousy.  He had never realized how much he wanted someone.  Someone to talk to; to hold him at night.  Someone to love him.

That’s what he wanted most of all, and he hadn’t realized it until Bella walked into his life.  Well, more in Bella’s case, tripped into his life.  Edward chuckled.  She was hopeless; always in need of rescuing.  And more times than not, rescuing by him.  Edward pictured what it would be like, to have Bella pressed up against his chest, wrapping his arms protectively around her.  Having Bella kiss his stone cold lips, and feeling her warm body against him.  To be able to call Bella his girl.

At the thought of such a fantasy, Edward’s heart fluttered.  He closed his eyes, picturing Bella’s beautiful face—plain, yet beautiful in every sense of the word.  No, he scolded himself, snapping out of his day-dream.

He looked at his reflection in the rear-view mirror.  “You can’t do this,” he told himself quietly, his voice shaking.  “If you get too close to her, nothing good will come out of it.”  He turned the key and listened to the revving of the engine.  For a few moments, he sat there studying his pale, stony hands; and finally he put them on the steering wheel.  “Like or not, you have to do it.  If you do, you know she’ll end up hurt.”  And with that, he pulled back onto the road and sped away with a heavy heart. 



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Well, I'm offically hooked. My friend reads these books ALL the time, and since I have nothing to read until the next Warriors comes out, I thought what the heck and borrowed her copy of Twilight. And you know what? I'm obsessed! Of course...! Now I'm obsessed with vampires and all that jazz. Oh and the fact that Edward Cullen is like, the definition of sexy doesn't hurt either.

So, this is a little story I whipped up in like 10 minutes because I just had to get out some of my Edward obsession. It's showing Ed's point of view as he's driving back to school after Bella's accident. This is where he's starting to question his feelings for her. Poor guy! You just have to love him!!

Hope you like it!

~wewtXD

Edward, Bella, and other characters © Stephenie Meyer
Story © ~wewtXD

To accompany my previous entry...

I drew a little piccie!  You like?! 

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HEY GUESS WHAT!! I'VE GOT A TWO HOUR DELAY!!! WHOOH! Just had to brag about it...sorry! But believe me, when you live in my district, you get excited over a little delay! They NEVER happen!!!

If you came with a warning label, what would it say?

Wow, I saw this and I just could NOT pass it up! If I came with a warning label, it would probably say:

WARNING: Has a tendancy to spontaniously go insane. Please go with caution. Not doing so may result in serious bodily/mental harm.

Yea, that's right! I seriously think everyone in the band (that's where I spend my time bcause I'm a huge nerd) thinks I'm a freak due to that exact reason!! And you have to admit, that is a pretty frickin' sweet warning label!

Well, I just wanted to do that one because it looked fun. I might actually do some more; to get those creative juices a-flowin'.

--Wewt

My English 9 class is reading the novel, Speak, by Laurie Halse Anderson.  Although they're all still on the Second Marking Period (instead of chapters, there's just big sections that mark the Marking periods/quarters), I finished the entire book last night.  It was amazing!!  Alright, now I'll start my review, which is actually more of a summary...

This book is about teenage girl, Melinda Sordino, who is an incoming freshman at Merryweather High.  She enters high school with no friends and being public enemy #1 in the school.  Apperently, something horrible happened over the summer that caused her social life to go right down the pooper.  She meets a new girl, Heather from Ohio, and she becomes her first and only friend in high school.  Melinda's first day doesn't go so hot, until art.  She gets assigned a year long project to draw a tree to represent herself.  Throughout the year she goes through the pain of awful memories, life with her distant parents, torture from a horrible nightmare, and everything else that comes with high school drama.

I reccommend this book to EVERYONE; boys and girls.  Actually, I really think this is a book boys should read.  I talks about some female subjects that you guys don't really get.  I think I said like the same thing in my last post...whoops.

Alright, well.  That's the end. Now. Uh. Go home. Really, go home.

Hello good people,

Well, I finally decided to get one of these things.  I noticed that a lot of people on dA had them so I said why not.  I'm also thinking of starting a novel--no, scratch that; I'm thinking of starting a novel that I'll finish!  I've really been wanting write this one for a looong time, so I'm going to MAKE myself finish it; even if it kills me!  But I can't promise constant posts. For me to be able to stick with something, I have to be paced.  But I also will try to upload some of my artwork here---making this like, the fifth place where my art is uploaded on the internet.  

Now, on another note; I just finished the book Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson.  It's now like, my favorite book!  It's really good, and totally recommend everyone read it; both boys and girls!  Actually, I think boys really should read it.  It talks about some subjects that guys don't really get about girls; some more serious than others.  I'll try to post a review later.

Well, that's all I have to say for right now.  I'll try to get on again soon, but now it's time for me to try and conquer algebra! Fun fun!!

See yeh!

Wewt